This apology, fucking accept it

It's almost 1AM and I spent two hours sobbing into a pillow because I realize how much of a hot headed, unpredictably moody person I am. No one likes that. And I've taken it out on my friends... That's not good, either. And for some reason, they don't like accepting my apologies, but I'm gonna do it again anyway.

Oh god, Lightning Crashes just came on... I'm gonna cry again... OK I'M ON A MISSION. I'm sorry, from the very bottom of my ugly, useless heart, I'm SORRY. ES OH AR AR WHY!

I've felt like waste because my twin isn't here, so I don't feel like I should be here either, especially with all the shit I cause. He/she'd be a much better friend and person, but the world just ain't right, so you're left with me. I'm pretty dumb, not talented with anything, and am not that fun to hang around with. But you guys stuck around anyway, god only knows why... And for some reason you're all loyal. To this dumbss loner. I don't know how you do that.

So like, everyday I think of all of you, because being said loner, who else am I gonna wanna be with? And here's the thing, I always convince myelf I've done something to upset you guys. It's dumb, but trust, you never wanna be in my brain when this happens. It. Sucks.

I dont like it, but if I feel like I've done anything to get you guys down, I need to fix it, so I go along with it. It doesn't make sense, but to me it's just how stuff goes. I don't know what it'll take to stop it, because goddamn I'm crazy, but it's not something to take out on anyone... A little help would be nice though, you know someone like me can't do it alone.

I love you all, please, for the love of Odin, just say "I forgive ya", not "YOU DON'T GOTTA BE SORRY LAWL". That is bullshit, sir. I don't deserve the loyalty.

ANOTHER RESPONCE LAWL!

Yeah uh, AJ calmed my ass down... But on to a new thing.

I've been fucking LONELY AS HELL and I don't like it. I had a meltdown at 5AM after a 20 second attempt at sleeping last night, and I have no idea why. I couldn't talk to anyone, cause everyone's gone. >_> It pisses me off, I'm always the kid with no one to be with. My friends have their actual friends and I'm stuck in my room, imagining how it would feel to run into a wall because I'm just that fucking frustrated. Always gotta be the lonely weird kid...

In Response the Post Below Me

I honestly don't believe anything extraordinary is going to happen in 2012, unless the central bank is planning something catastrophic to happen so they get more money :D. And yes, 9/11 was predicted. <_< Honestly, too much evidence points to that it was planned by someone in our government. WHERE THE FUCK DID THE PLANE OVER PENNSYLVANIA GO? It's not like they got the Bermuda Triangle to use as an excuse. And, yo, the Central bank made money by our government borrowing more money on interest from them to go to war with Iraq and Afghanistan. In way previous years, scientists could have predicted this to happen. Probably right when Woodrow Wilson signed the bill to allow the United States to be come the bank's slave.

Worrying about 2012... It ain't so great

Just why the hell am I up at 6AM looking up as many articles as I can explaining that the fear over 2012 is nonsense? I know it's all silly and pushed by radicals who have nothing better to do but to make others scared, but sheesh, I'm young... On 2012 I'm only gonna be 18. I wanna, ya know, live a full life. That, along with the idea that everyone would have to watch a giant frozen rock crash into us... Not to pleasent. But I know it isn't true!

But here's the thing; I watched the rerun of that Bible code special on History Channel the other day, and that shit apparently predicted 9/11 and other historical events. It freaks me out that I can't find articles explaining that shit, so I'm gonna bug Ronnie tomorrow about it because he knows a shit ton of scientists and researchers, blah blah blah to point me out to. Like a few days ago, he explained it as a prediction that's meant for a much longer waiting time, or something like that. And other stuff I can't remember.

Guys, I really need a hug...

I think I'm bi or something

What would you think after realizing the hetero porn does nothing for you? Lezzies and boobs, AMERICA FUCK YEAH *boioioioioiing*

But then after I feel weird about fapping to a chick, I look up some Dethklok porn and all is well... But the fact that it's cartoon porn must mean I have some sort of issue, right? Jebus.

Can't they find hot porn dudes who don't have hairless bodies and aren't either fat or too muscley? And for the love of god, IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT YOU. MAKE THE CHICK GASM!! That's partly why I dislike hetero porn, I don't watch it and go "Wowie, that'd feel sweet". No, it's a chick shoving her hips down a guy's ding dong, while he pounds it in her like he's filling up a fish tank. THAT. DON'T. DO. SHIT. FOR. MY. VAGINA.

Also, seeing as YouPorn is my only option to find porn on until I get my own comp... Yeah... I can't find much good stuff.

And also... How did I spend 3 minutes writing about porn? I was supposed to be in bed two hours ago. <_< ... BYE! :D

Ta-Da!

I'm bringing in the cover for y'all...I still have yet to write these articles. And I'm thinking next year I'm gonna write a bunch of stuff instead of doing this all at the end :D. Smart eh?

German Sex Education

This is the way advertising, education, media, anything to do with informing the people should be. America has taken in this whole "don'f offend" anyone thing. Well kids, if you don't offend, sometime (a lot of the time) you get nowhere. People don't act when they feel no emotion towards a piece. It's just there, and blah. This is a good example of a serious issue made serious:


Text:

“Diagnosis: Between life and death lies only .003 milimeters of latex.
Notes: Every year, 3 million people die resulting from AIDs world wide.
Use: Infrom yourself; knowledge protects against contamination/infection”




All we ever use is words. Not that words aren't powerful, in fact, sometimes they're the most powerful, but in this case, images for scare factor should be used. Unprotected sex is or could be a matter of life and death. An image like this will stick in a person's mind and they'll remember it. Frankness may offend people, but it gets to the point, and makes sure that the point is heard. All this bullshit with "politically correctness" is just an excuse to make our pieces of writing have a shit load more deadwood. Deadwood sucks people.

Dieting Advertising

Ok, so I decided to check my GaySpace stuff today. And there's at least 3 different companies trying to sell their dieting crap everytime I load the home page. One has this scrawny chick showing how much weight she lost by the pant size. But she's nasty skinny. Like on the verge of Ausschwitz skinny. THAT IS NOT HOT! Ok? You women need to be proud of your bodies.


If you'd like to lose weight, take the time to cook a decent meal that consists mostly of fuits and veggies, not meat. Complex carbohydrates are great too, but don't over do those either. The fruits and veggies will make you feel better too. It's a win win there. A long with the fruits and veggies, stay away from chemically and factory manufactured products. Stuff like margarine, shorting, american cheese, velveeta, spaghetti-os, fake egg products, etc. This stuff has almost no nutritional value. Not only that, it tastes like crap and has bad side effects that come up later, after eating a bunch of it...not only that it tastes like shit compared to the real stuff.


For margarine verus butter, margarine is produced using extreme heat conditions, and chemicals (to get it to the consistency of butter and to make it taste and look like butter). Margarine triggers the stress hormone in your body that produces bad cholesterol. Butter, on the other hand, is made from cow's milk fat. REAL fat...of which your brain functions partly on. It's like the difference between eating a real hamburger and one of those plastic toys you buy your kids. Dude, flies won't even eat margarine...and they eat feces!

But that's not all. You can't just change your eating habits. Start exercising. Exercising will help you use up the calories you take in through eating. If you eat a lot, you'll have to exercise a lot. Eat less, exercise less. Exercise is also good for relieving stress. Stress is one hell of a fat builder. It's your body's survival instincts becoming active. Way back when...stress was usually an indicator of food shortage, bad climate, disease, etc...Now we get stress from our jobs, children, economy, government, etc. Just take some time each day to sit back and chill. Clear your mind of all the stressful crap. Stress not only produces fat, it produces the bad cholesterol. Bad news, both for your weight, and for your heart.

One of the best album titles

"I likew volumizing shampoo, because I wanna know what my hair has to say"

OMG!

Kso, there was a Halloween Sale at Tate's, and people in costume got their pictures taken and uploaded to the site. Guess which Stalker Sister got her photo uuuup~

And dude, someone even favored it on Flickr... >_> [/feels speshual]