So, I'm back now, and wow! (not the game...)

That last post was amazing <3 when I saw it. I can barely remember that night...I wonders if I'd been drinking :D....yes yes yes.

Anywho, I is out of basic training,and at my new command!! wooo...yeah no...I is on hold for the first class (SCC)and going on a working party every fucking day *dances*. and I is really hungry right now cause I didnt feel like eating when i was told I could eat.

I have to fart but...oh nevermind there it is...but yeah I'm back!

Lesasaurus-Rex

The Lesbian Dinosaur that has laser sex. There are two in exsistance as far as we know. Rachel and I are the only lesbian dinosaurs left today. Laser sex in amaing btw.

Periods, Exercising, and Food

I was looking through stuff about exercising, food and menstruation today and I found some pretty nifty shit. First let's start off with why I was looking for this stuff. I tried to go out running yesterday but I almost immediately felt heavy and sluggish and about half way through I started getting light headed (even though I drank a bottle and a half of water) and I knew I was about to have my period.

So I looked up stuff about exercising with my period, and they say do your normal exercise (stop if you're getting light headed, duh) but don't dramatically increase the exercising. I thought this source was pretty nifty: http://www.wikihow.com/Exercise-While-on-Your-Period

Then I got to thinking about what should I be eating while I'm on the cotton penis. I found some useful stuff. http://lifestyle.iloveindia.com/lounge/food-and-menstrual-cramps-1375.html. Though I will say that a woman's blood sugar can get messed up (from experience) and sugars aren't all bad, they can actually make you8 feel better some of the time. Also, sugars make me feel better mentally, so if you're one of those people, don't give them up. Drink water too, water is good.

And if you're like me, you may be wondering what the fuck magnesium is...so here's a link for that too.

I miss my best friend, you're gonna hear about it

Layne has been in basic training for a few days now, has texted us a few times and all is well for him. It makes me feel secure knowing he's not in a nest made of heroin, but here's where I turn on the water works: I MISS HIM.

Look at him and tell me you wouldn't be sad not having the chance to see that face for 6 months! It's making me feel all warm and fuzzy thinking about when he'll be back... He's a very important person to us. And for me, I wouldn't be who I am without him, it sounds kind of extreme but he got me into Sublime and Soundgarden, that's a big deal to me...

Not only those things, but that son of a bitch has been there for me nearly EVERY SINGLE TIME I NEEDED HIM. A few times he missed cause he was drunk or had his brain turned to mush over a girl, but he still gave a damn. I wouldn't have too much confidence without him, life would be boring, I would have nothing to look forward to as a 12 year old... He's so fucking fun to talk to, even when there's nothing to say (if anyone gets that extremely small pun, you get a cookie). In the early days when no one had responsibilities and when he first started at Sam Ash, we'd talk until fucking 5AM, sometimes one on one, sometime in our group. Those were memories staring at a computer, sure, but they make my heart burst with happy. And a few weeks ago, me and him talked on the phone until 7AM, and were on cam. We saw ourselves falling asleep and our voices couldn't hold up any more, and he still gave me a speech about confidence and not turning into anyone's door mat, and I wish I could thank him for that right now. Maybe when he comes back, I might just write something here.

But here's something, it's 5AM and I need to go to bed, I'm full of happy and an itchy head. I love Private Wiebalck to fucking death and nothing can get in the way of that, because that short cranky bastard is one in a million.

Courtney Love made a joke about Jews, EVERYONE FUCKING LOSES IT

Kso, she did an interview with Heeb magazine and said something about how the money paid for Nirvana CDs only goes to Jew laywers and bankers, and the comments on it were like "I'm gonna burn Live Through This! Fuck her!". I love how people pretend they've never cracked a joke about races.

And listen, I'm pretty bias because I fucking adore Courtney. She's my hero. But I also didn't give a shit when Mel Gibson got shit faced and said stupid stuff to that cop. And there might be other examples I can't think of, but generally, when someone makes a racial joke, it doesn't fucking matter to me! I make as mean jokes about spics as possible, I am one. Dave Chappelle writes awesome skits about blacks, and somehow talking about Jews is on a whole different level than saying "black folk are taking all our chicken"? Please. Also, the woman's half Jewish, it doesn't fucking matter.

I might sound real dumb, but I'm so sick of this shit. I will make jokes about whoever I want, it doesn't mean anything. It's like saying "I hate you!" when someone has something you want. It's playing around. And if you wanna get deep into history and oppression of different people, fine and dandy. I'll talk about that. But don't turn a joke into something much deeper than it is, especially if it's a stereotype joke.

Edit: In the same interview, she claimed to be part Cuban. MY LIFE. IS FUCKING. COMPLETE.

Louder Than Love: Why it's better than most things

I was about to make a hot dog and suddenly I thought of Uncovered, off Louder Than Love, Soundgarden's album that is basically an orgasm made into music. Listen, I was convinced to listen to this as my introduction to Soundgarden one night when I was talking to Crunchy. Luckily, for whatever reason, mom bought this on a whim when we went out one day and OH HO, IT WAS THERE FOR THE PICKING.

So at the wonderful age of 12, with my terrible insomnia and new found chronic depression, I listened to this at, I think, 1AM and my mind EXPLODED ALL OVER THE FUCKING PLACE. This was my source of life for a long time, along with Mario Kart and Metalocalypse. Those were good times that I miss like a motherfucker. We lived at the old place, aka the ex I will stalk and think about forever. During that time, it'd rain alot, or get cold, and I had red hair, and was in 7th grade and hated education like you couldn't possibly understand...

This album got me through the day when I was bored, tired, aching, annoyed, upset, and when my eyes were about to pop out of my skull from whatever. My body really doesn't feel good most of the time. But the memories I think of when I listen to this album mean the entire world to me. After this, and today, I am a strong Soundgarden fan and Chris Cornell needs to stop making bad solo albums (minus his first, IT'S GOD, THAT ONE) and get back to his roots for a bit. Also... Ok you know what, I'll say it straight up, REUNITE SOUNDGARDEN FOR A TOUR JESUS GOD ODIN ALLAH BUDDHA UUUUUUUUUUGH.

To get off from the negative for a bit, and to take my mind off that hot mess called Project Revolution, Louder Than Love was just another gateway to understanding what time I was going through, and gave life back to music for me. I'm only almost 15, listening to this takes me back to what seems like centuries. Lots of things changed since then, I miss it alot. For now, I'm gonna pretend to be 12, and everyone can shut it.

<3 Monty

Monty's my record spinny. Right now it's playing Appetite for Destruction, and it's much better this way than on CD. I remember why this struck me so hard when I was 10. I'm also listening to the Pixies and trying out Bad Brains. <3 pretending to live 20 years ago.

I dunno if I can listen to CDs anymore and be like "Hmmmm nice". I'll nerd out and go "Yeah it's remastered, but it's not QWUALITY." Yes, quality with a W. Because that's how my dad says it when he's gushing over something... It's strange to hear.

Also, I worked my fingers into a tizzy with this scale shit. The pinky is the lazist little fucker! Always making the E string buzz. And the end of my index finger stings, but it'll be worth it in five years. <_<

Also, to leave you all with something awesome Chloe said long ago: "God hates me! The feeling is mutual!"

Puppy Chow

This is my favorite and a great party hit for any age, I promise. It's also pretty neat for like a cookie bake or for holiday parties.

12 oz Crispex or crispy hexagons XD (some people like to use rice chex)
1 C Peanut Butter
2 C (12 oz) Semisweet Chocolate chips
1/4 C (1 stick) Butter (or margarine if you like fakey stuff)
Powdered sugar (almost a full normal-sized bag)

Melt the peanut butter, chocolate chips, and butter together. Put the crispex into a grocery bag/large pale (ice cream pale works well) and pour the melted mixture over the cereal. Shake/stir it up (shaking is easier) until all the cereal is coated. Start adding powdered sugar gradually and shaking until all the pieces are covered with powdered sugar. There ya go...you're finally able to eat it!

Oriental Salad

Ok I found this in a church cookbook, and I think my grandma had made it for a family gathering (or something similar). The author of this one was "Ann in the English Department at University of California, Irvine, on page 77 of the St Joseph's Parish Cookbook: Heavenly Scents of an unknown year.

Salad ingredients
1/2 head chunked cabbage
1 pkg ramen noodles (this recommends chicken flavor)
2 T toasted sesame seeds
1/2 C toasted slivered almonds
3-4 minced green onions

Dressing:
3 T sugar
3 T vinegar
1/2 C oil
1/4 t pepper
1/2 t salt (or to taste, imo)
Flavoring pkt from ramen noodles

Combine and shake well. Crumble ramen noodles. Mix dressing and chill. Just before serving, combine cabbage, ramen, sesame seeds, almonds, and onions. Add dressing last.

My grandma had toasted the ramen noodles as well, btw.

It's a new year, POST SOMETHING

C'mon... It may only be the 6th, but there's still so much to bitch about this year. Like; I miss 2008, the slightly uneasy feeling, IT'S THE LAST YEAR OF THIS DECADE. I feel fucking strange knowing that I remember living through these past ten years. I'll be 15 though, so I shouldn't feel so old... <_<

But when this decade is over, what do we call it? We have the 80's and 90's, you call them by their number. But no one says the 2000's, they say new millenium(I totally spelled that wrong). What happens when it's over? It's not new anymore! Plus the rest of the century... <_< Which uh, I hope brings more good than bad. If it does, I'll be willing to live a little longer than I have planned. But if I have to see this place slowly turn into the Jensens, I'm out this bitch.

Btw, Throwing Copper = <333

Yo Tashy!

Heeeeeeeeey! But no really. I'm glad that even after this weird angst month of stupid you're all still around. XD I love you all, and like stuff. It'll take a while for me to use common sense when this stuff comes up, but I have you all, so that helps alot...

Having raging hormones really sucks and stuff, ya know? No good decisions are made at 3AM, guys! I learned that the hard and embarassing way. XD Someone should take away my phone plan at night...

Clever Advertising

Why is cleaver advertising always seen as the worst? Like this ad that was on the London railways...for ps2. So it's on a train telling people to run and jump. But it's for playstation. Lots of times in those games you do have to run and jump from a moving object. It reminds me of the Ratchet and Clank advertisements.

Yo Rachie

We love you. Quit wishing you weren't born. If you wouldn't have been born, we (Layne, AJ, and I) would not have a sister; or at least not one as awesome and cool, and sweet, and funny as you. I know it sucks being a loner, but you do have friends. So they're online? I don't mind, you guys are family. I'd die/kill/fight for you at all costs.

And your twin could very well be in the same situation as you, had she/he made it. You're not the only loner, nor will you be the last. And btw, ftw, I think about my online family more often than my real life friends.

Jesus Christ

http://iasshole.org/

Click that link you dumbass, it's the funniest site I've read in a while. I have NO IDEA what it's really about, but after 5 minutes of looking around, I have a new favorite activity for when I'm procrastinating. Enjoy!

This apology, fucking accept it

It's almost 1AM and I spent two hours sobbing into a pillow because I realize how much of a hot headed, unpredictably moody person I am. No one likes that. And I've taken it out on my friends... That's not good, either. And for some reason, they don't like accepting my apologies, but I'm gonna do it again anyway.

Oh god, Lightning Crashes just came on... I'm gonna cry again... OK I'M ON A MISSION. I'm sorry, from the very bottom of my ugly, useless heart, I'm SORRY. ES OH AR AR WHY!

I've felt like waste because my twin isn't here, so I don't feel like I should be here either, especially with all the shit I cause. He/she'd be a much better friend and person, but the world just ain't right, so you're left with me. I'm pretty dumb, not talented with anything, and am not that fun to hang around with. But you guys stuck around anyway, god only knows why... And for some reason you're all loyal. To this dumbss loner. I don't know how you do that.

So like, everyday I think of all of you, because being said loner, who else am I gonna wanna be with? And here's the thing, I always convince myelf I've done something to upset you guys. It's dumb, but trust, you never wanna be in my brain when this happens. It. Sucks.

I dont like it, but if I feel like I've done anything to get you guys down, I need to fix it, so I go along with it. It doesn't make sense, but to me it's just how stuff goes. I don't know what it'll take to stop it, because goddamn I'm crazy, but it's not something to take out on anyone... A little help would be nice though, you know someone like me can't do it alone.

I love you all, please, for the love of Odin, just say "I forgive ya", not "YOU DON'T GOTTA BE SORRY LAWL". That is bullshit, sir. I don't deserve the loyalty.

ANOTHER RESPONCE LAWL!

Yeah uh, AJ calmed my ass down... But on to a new thing.

I've been fucking LONELY AS HELL and I don't like it. I had a meltdown at 5AM after a 20 second attempt at sleeping last night, and I have no idea why. I couldn't talk to anyone, cause everyone's gone. >_> It pisses me off, I'm always the kid with no one to be with. My friends have their actual friends and I'm stuck in my room, imagining how it would feel to run into a wall because I'm just that fucking frustrated. Always gotta be the lonely weird kid...

In Response the Post Below Me

I honestly don't believe anything extraordinary is going to happen in 2012, unless the central bank is planning something catastrophic to happen so they get more money :D. And yes, 9/11 was predicted. <_< Honestly, too much evidence points to that it was planned by someone in our government. WHERE THE FUCK DID THE PLANE OVER PENNSYLVANIA GO? It's not like they got the Bermuda Triangle to use as an excuse. And, yo, the Central bank made money by our government borrowing more money on interest from them to go to war with Iraq and Afghanistan. In way previous years, scientists could have predicted this to happen. Probably right when Woodrow Wilson signed the bill to allow the United States to be come the bank's slave.

Worrying about 2012... It ain't so great

Just why the hell am I up at 6AM looking up as many articles as I can explaining that the fear over 2012 is nonsense? I know it's all silly and pushed by radicals who have nothing better to do but to make others scared, but sheesh, I'm young... On 2012 I'm only gonna be 18. I wanna, ya know, live a full life. That, along with the idea that everyone would have to watch a giant frozen rock crash into us... Not to pleasent. But I know it isn't true!

But here's the thing; I watched the rerun of that Bible code special on History Channel the other day, and that shit apparently predicted 9/11 and other historical events. It freaks me out that I can't find articles explaining that shit, so I'm gonna bug Ronnie tomorrow about it because he knows a shit ton of scientists and researchers, blah blah blah to point me out to. Like a few days ago, he explained it as a prediction that's meant for a much longer waiting time, or something like that. And other stuff I can't remember.

Guys, I really need a hug...

I think I'm bi or something

What would you think after realizing the hetero porn does nothing for you? Lezzies and boobs, AMERICA FUCK YEAH *boioioioioiing*

But then after I feel weird about fapping to a chick, I look up some Dethklok porn and all is well... But the fact that it's cartoon porn must mean I have some sort of issue, right? Jebus.

Can't they find hot porn dudes who don't have hairless bodies and aren't either fat or too muscley? And for the love of god, IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT YOU. MAKE THE CHICK GASM!! That's partly why I dislike hetero porn, I don't watch it and go "Wowie, that'd feel sweet". No, it's a chick shoving her hips down a guy's ding dong, while he pounds it in her like he's filling up a fish tank. THAT. DON'T. DO. SHIT. FOR. MY. VAGINA.

Also, seeing as YouPorn is my only option to find porn on until I get my own comp... Yeah... I can't find much good stuff.

And also... How did I spend 3 minutes writing about porn? I was supposed to be in bed two hours ago. <_< ... BYE! :D

Ta-Da!

I'm bringing in the cover for y'all...I still have yet to write these articles. And I'm thinking next year I'm gonna write a bunch of stuff instead of doing this all at the end :D. Smart eh?